Mar 31, 2010

Did I Change?

An old buddy sent me text messaging in an afternoon.


Ass diLLa,9mn kbr’y?CoRry ney 9ang96u reunian t9L 28’y Jd 9 ceY? [Bahasa version]

Hey dilla, how are u? Sorry to disturb u. Shall we hold the reunion on 28? [English version]


I set my brow furrowed. OMG, I didn’t understand what did she mean to me? She used a strange typing style and I didn’t like it. Then I replied her SMS.


W3. Reunian apa? Aq ga dpt pemberitahuan, Coy. [Bahasa version]

W3. What reunion? I didn’t get the notification, Coy. [English Version]


FYI, at the first time I thought the SMS came from my friend whose name Cory alias Coy. Because she typed ‘corry ney’ (look at the first SMS) on the first SMS. Then I knew she was not Cory but Mae. LOL. What kinda friend I am? Umm, frankly, sometime I didn’t save some number of friends in my main cell phone. I saved them in my second (CDMA) cell phone. So it aint freak anymore right after reading this paragraph, huh? [note: some of this blog’s readers would say what freak, huh? What freak?]

Mae sent me SMS again.

Ini dilla kan? Bhs’y aneh… [Bahasa version]

Is this really dilla rite? You have weird language… [English version]


What? Me? Bizarre? Strange? LOL. Did I change? More serious? More funny? Yeah friend, buddy, this is me. Let me know which part on me that really change. What kinda of change? Bad into good or in the contrary?

Haha, well, I have some friends who told me this also. They said I was changed. Ya, ya, I changed. I was being woman, okay. I should be more mature. I was not a child anymore. Then, did you, my friends, feel so awkward to me? Just because of this change? Oh come on… LOL. We are human, buddies. We would change into the bigger and better part. We would take on higher part, rite. Just take it easy. Just take it slow.

Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same. [everybody's changing- Keane]

Mar 23, 2010


‘Don’t worry, D. I’ll be fine. Just cannot connect to internet for a while.’

That the last text messaging I had accepted from the one that I know as my lover and we’re in love one another. I set straight face to see his message. After that day, I tried to not call him either via cell phone or internet. I just tested him, was he really love or not. But finally I knew that he never would call me anymore. NEVER. Because he was engaged with someone.

ENGAGED. That what I read on his Facebook. Then I felt something hit me on the heart which was really hurt. Hey, somebody, tell me why?! Actually, that news would never really a problem to me if he have told me at the first or when he started off falling in love with another girl. He was ENGAGED and he never would told me until I asked him. Such a ridiculous, huh. Then he was lying me when I asked him whether he loved me or not. Then he was lying me when he talked anything honestly. Then he just fooled me. Hey reader, give him applause, please.

HONEST: only this what I wanted from him or from any men who loved me. If you have no feeling to me, just say NO. On the other hand, say YES if you were really in love to me. To be hurt by HONEST is more I like than by LIE.

Well, this is just my useless article to be read. Just leave the comment box if you were sick with this article. Okay, back to smile coz I felt breathing again after writing this one.